I think the most difficult question to answer is “what are you looking for in a partner ?”
It may be the most difficult for people who simply can’t let people love them. They are so broken inside they don’t know how to be loved.
So assuming that question will hover my head regardless of what a toxic psychological makeup I am bound to, I guess what I’m looking for can be summed up to the ability of someone to surprise me.
I get bored with people quite easily, mystery and charm can go a long way with keeping me fascinated and thirsty for more.
I want somebody like..10000 times smarter than me, brains is by far the quality I consider to be most attractive. In a way, I need to totally not get him and what he’s about.
Someone who’s complexed, kind of screwed up inside, but goes about it in a mysterious way that can keep me guessing about him for nights on end.
The closest I ever got to really getting to know somebody was when sex was completely out of the question. It was Mr. X. Having a girlfriend put us in a static “platonic” state. It’s easier that way cuz you are able to make objective conclusions about the other person.
I guess I need my mind to be swept away, my body will follow right after.